We spent this Thanksgiving in New Hampshire with my husband's family. It was wonderful! It was big and loud and full of laughter; just how Thanksgiving should be. As I sat, surrounded by family and friends my heart felt like it was going to burst! I felt genuinely happy. After we stuffed ourselves with turkey …
Feelings
I've been pretty silent on my blog and infertility instagram account. Honestly, I haven't wanted to talk about infertility. As weird as that sounds, because I'm so passionate about it, I felt like I needed some space to heal. Completely. Without the noise. When Josh and I decided to take a break from treatment, I …
On a Break
There is this saying that you can't pour from an empty cup. In the past couple of weeks, that saying has stuck with me. After a year and a half of fertility drugs, one miscarriage, and a failed IUI attempt we decided that we are taking a break. I had been thinking about this for …
You’re Allowed to be Sad
I have found that in the infertility community, people can be NASTY. Not nasty in a gross way, but nasty in a mean and hateful way. There is this unspoken bar that is set that the longer someone else is infertile, the less validated you are in your sadness. I found this out when I …
Fluff Break
I’m a nerd. A HUGE NERD. Harry Potter, Game of Thrones, Supernatural…those are my peeps. Fluff is a term in the fanfiction world that basically means sweet, little plot, no angst, etc. So today I am taking a fluff break from all the anger, grief, and sadness of infertility. Today I'm going to talk about …
Two Pink Lines
I debated when and if I should post this. I felt like I needed time to grieve, however I cope by writing. This blog originally started out as an outlet for me when I was first diagnosed with PCOS. I never anticipated that it would turn into a comfort for many people and introduce me …
What Infertility Has Taught Me
Yesterday was the last day of infertility awareness week. If you follow me on instagram, you have seen my multitude of posts. This year's theme was "flip the script" which aligns with the purpose of my blog beautifully. I so badly wanted to post a video to describe my final thoughts on infertility awareness week, …
When Things Don’t Go As Planned…
For the first time in a couple of months, I'm actually feeling like myself. If you struggle with infertility, you know exactly what I'm talking about. There are times when you feel so disconnected from your body, that you don't even recognize yourself. I recently learned that when you are going through hormone treatments your …
Brittni’s Story
The first day of my last period was 1/1/18. That’s easy to remember. Then I got pregnant. I knew immediately- not because of any womanly intuition or anything like that, but because I’m very, very regular. The day before my missed period, I wasn’t spotting like usual. The day my period would have begun, I …
Finding Joy Through Infertility
It is very difficult to find joy when you have days where you are barely holding yourself together. There are days when the burdens of life feel so heavy, all I can do is go home and lock myself in my room for several hours and cry. It happens. But most days, I feel great. …