Today would've been your due date. I can't even wrap my head around the fact that if you had stayed, you would either be here or I would be about to pop. I can't help but wonder what life would be like right now if things had been different. I always felt like you would've [...]
Why We Won’t “Just Adopt.”
I first want to disclaim that I think adoption is one of the most beautiful things ever. EVER. I have friends and family that have been blessed with adoption and it truly is remarkable. However, I cannot stand the phrase "just adopt." It makes my blood boil. First, if you think about asking the question [...]
You’re Allowed to be Happy
We spent this Thanksgiving in New Hampshire with my husband's family. It was wonderful! It was big and loud and full of laughter; just how Thanksgiving should be. As I sat, surrounded by family and friends my heart felt like it was going to burst! I felt genuinely happy. After we stuffed ourselves with turkey [...]
The Bitterness of Infertility and Why It’s Dangerous
It isn't a surprise that with infertility comes bitterness. It's ugly, it's dark, but it's totally normal. It's also super damaging. It's so damn hard not to be bitter, and I think that it's okay to allow yourself to feel those feeling every once in a while. But I will scream this from the rooftops: [...]
Feelings
I've been pretty silent on my blog and infertility instagram account. Honestly, I haven't wanted to talk about infertility. As weird as that sounds, because I'm so passionate about it, I felt like I needed some space to heal. Completely. Without the noise. When Josh and I decided to take a break from treatment, I [...]
Plus Size and Trying To Conceive (TTC)
As someone that is not ignorant to the fact that they are plus size, my weight doesn't usually bother me. I don't obsess about the fact that I'm "fat" or "thick." In my mind if you don't like the way I look, that's your problem. I could care less what anyone thinks about me or [...]
On a Break
There is this saying that you can't pour from an empty cup. In the past couple of weeks, that saying has stuck with me. After a year and a half of fertility drugs, one miscarriage, and a failed IUI attempt we decided that we are taking a break. I had been thinking about this for [...]
